*processing*

sometimes to maintain ur standard its really nt easy. esp. when ppl start comparing. it wont help. i dun like it.. realli.. i mean even if u compare.. i m nt motivated just because i m compared. i onli wish dat de motivator come from within me. wadeva i m gettin. it probably wont b gd. i mean look at how much i haf put in. some may sae since i realise den y dun i improve it. its nt like dat. its not i dont want to improve it. der is just no motivation. some are just so gd in motivating demselves. i cant. i cant find the right reason. i cant find the true reason for doing wad i m doing. at times i felt realli felt like turning arnd. but i guess rite now.. der is no turning round route for me. just like some of de action game.. where de character walk pass the bridge, wood or wadeva, the route will disappear, n u cant turn back. like de screen on ur comp or tv can onli move forward but no backward. u get wad i m tryin to sae ya?
my cousin gt into medicine! gd news ya? :D congrats! :D
another trial i guess.. hai.. no motivation.. wads dis.. few daes ago just told my fren dat de other fren shud haf better ctrl of her own emotion n she shall nt allow herself to fall so deep. it wont work u see.. i mean.. y u allow urself fall.. n get injured. it doesnt help rite? y u make urself suffer. by sayin dat u wont go n look for happiness til the person dat u adore found one. but happiness cant be found. u can onli realised. isnt it? dats wad i tot.
hai. i tot dat its just a growing phase. i tot its just part n parcel of life. i tot once its out of ur life. it ll b over. n u can lead a normal life again. but once again i m wrong. nv know dat de presence itself can bring so much emotions back. n rite now it cant get out of my mind. wadeva de it is. i m nt gg to allow it to dominate my mind -_-
hmm.. ever think that ur study is nt v productive? try going to loo's house. how unproductive it is.. it is still v productive :D that wad i feel la at least. haha.. thnx loo. for the nv-ending supply of water :p and ya.. sori dat i nid to leave earli ya.. heh.. thnx man.. for inviting me to ur hse to study. so ppl out there who want productive studyin.. her hse is best. or mayb her companion that allows de study to be productive? :p

time spent with you feels like the dreams i have every nite.. n weird enough.. since the day i met you, you have appeared on my dreams countless times :)

*processing*

sometimes to maintain ur standard its really nt easy. esp. when ppl start comparing. it wont help. i dun like it.. realli.. i mean even if u compare.. i m nt motivated just because i m compared. i onli wish dat de motivator come from within me. wadeva i m gettin. it probably wont b gd. i mean look at how much i haf put in. some may sae since i realise den y dun i improve it. its nt like dat. its not i dont want to improve it. der is just no motivation. some are just so gd in motivating demselves. i cant. i cant find the right reason. i cant find the true reason for doing wad i m doing. at times i felt realli felt like turning arnd. but i guess rite now.. der is no turning round route for me. just like some of de action game.. where de character walk pass the bridge, wood or wadeva, the route will disappear, n u cant turn back. like de screen on ur comp or tv can onli move forward but no backward. u get wad i m tryin to sae ya?
my cousin gt into medicine! gd news ya? :D congrats! :D
another trial i guess.. hai.. no motivation.. wads dis.. few daes ago just told my fren dat de other fren shud haf better ctrl of her own emotion n she shall nt allow herself to fall so deep. it wont work u see.. i mean.. y u allow urself fall.. n get injured. it doesnt help rite? y u make urself suffer. by sayin dat u wont go n look for happiness til the person dat u adore found one. but happiness cant be found. u can onli realised. isnt it? dats wad i tot.
hai. i tot dat its just a growing phase. i tot its just part n parcel of life. i tot once its out of ur life. it ll b over. n u can lead a normal life again. but once again i m wrong. nv know dat de presence itself can bring so much emotions back. n rite now it cant get out of my mind. wadeva de it is. i m nt gg to allow it to dominate my mind -_-
hmm.. ever think that ur study is nt v productive? try going to loo's house. how unproductive it is.. it is still v productive :D that wad i feel la at least. haha.. thnx loo. for the nv-ending supply of water :p and ya.. sori dat i nid to leave earli ya.. heh.. thnx man.. for inviting me to ur hse to study. so ppl out there who want productive studyin.. her hse is best. or mayb her companion that allows de study to be productive? :p

time spent with you feels like the dreams i have every nite.. n weird enough.. since the day i met you, you have appeared on my dreams countless times :)