*deep in thought*

At different times in our own life, different stuff has different priorities. It was kind of funny when u have thought tt sth was so impt tt u wont ever throw it away.. bt few mths later, when u took it out again, u look at it.. n have this particular feeling "I should be moving on" n so u throw it away. Personally, i like to keep unneccessary things tt i thought ll help me retain some memories be it good or bad. But somehow it nv does. n strangely, now tt i think abt it.. when i throw those things tt used to be my precious, i felt as if a burden was lifted up. haa.. okk.. i know it sounds weird. bt tt's how i feel. Mayb it somehow represents dat wadeva is bothering me, i have at last put it aside and accept the outcome. maybe? (just maybe those stuff tt i decided to throw away are things tt retain my unhappy memories? just maybe those stuff tt i still keep and is still important to me, are things tt have help me retain my happy memories? maybe.:D )

forgive me if it is another abstract entry :)

*happy!*

haa! thnx Cheng Pei! for doing such a nice and cool background for me! oh my.. u r really gd.. thnx man! :D

*blanK*

this is getting irritating. i dont know what i want. i dont know whats wrong with me. all i want to do is either shout at people or stop talking entirely. i dont feel like gg anywhere. i feel like staying at hm n do nth. nth n nth. i feel like flowing along with time. flowing away from today. flowing away from tomorrow. flowing away from all these restrictions of time n datelines. living in a carefree world where dates and times are of no significance.

*confused*

i tried not to think about anything.
i tried to think happy thoughts.
i tried to be cheerful.
i tried to study.
i tried to sleep.
i tried not to notice whats happening.
i tried to attract attention.
i tried to be selfless.
but whateva i tried to do, nothing seemed to work.

i know right now u need time for urself.. u need to think about many things.. i know i promised not to disturb u.. so that u can think ur things through. but u know, what i m really hoping is u sharing whats in u with me. i mean dats wad frens are for right? u alwaes say nth is wrong wif u when dey r so many things disturbing u.. u know y i said sth is wrong wif u? u want to know wads wrong? u r closing up.. whether closing up frm me.. or frm de rest of ur frens.. i dont know y.. bt i felt like i m losing u slowly too.. (mayb u ll sae i think too much. mayb i do think too much) u know y i always talked when i called ya, cause i really hope u will just open up and talk to me too.

(i duno wad will be in ur mind when u read this. but basically i dun wan u to be stressed out by this entry. mayb somehow i haf had some expectations over our frenship. if u do think so den tell me. ( i am sorry to give u another trouble, when u r alr facing with so many uncertainties and confusions))

take care my friend.

*deep in thought*

At different times in our own life, different stuff has different priorities. It was kind of funny when u have thought tt sth was so impt tt u wont ever throw it away.. bt few mths later, when u took it out again, u look at it.. n have this particular feeling "I should be moving on" n so u throw it away. Personally, i like to keep unneccessary things tt i thought ll help me retain some memories be it good or bad. But somehow it nv does. n strangely, now tt i think abt it.. when i throw those things tt used to be my precious, i felt as if a burden was lifted up. haa.. okk.. i know it sounds weird. bt tt's how i feel. Mayb it somehow represents dat wadeva is bothering me, i have at last put it aside and accept the outcome. maybe? (just maybe those stuff tt i decided to throw away are things tt retain my unhappy memories? just maybe those stuff tt i still keep and is still important to me, are things tt have help me retain my happy memories? maybe.:D )

forgive me if it is another abstract entry :)

*happy!*

haa! thnx Cheng Pei! for doing such a nice and cool background for me! oh my.. u r really gd.. thnx man! :D

*blanK*

this is getting irritating. i dont know what i want. i dont know whats wrong with me. all i want to do is either shout at people or stop talking entirely. i dont feel like gg anywhere. i feel like staying at hm n do nth. nth n nth. i feel like flowing along with time. flowing away from today. flowing away from tomorrow. flowing away from all these restrictions of time n datelines. living in a carefree world where dates and times are of no significance.

*confused*

i tried not to think about anything.
i tried to think happy thoughts.
i tried to be cheerful.
i tried to study.
i tried to sleep.
i tried not to notice whats happening.
i tried to attract attention.
i tried to be selfless.
but whateva i tried to do, nothing seemed to work.

i know right now u need time for urself.. u need to think about many things.. i know i promised not to disturb u.. so that u can think ur things through. but u know, what i m really hoping is u sharing whats in u with me. i mean dats wad frens are for right? u alwaes say nth is wrong wif u when dey r so many things disturbing u.. u know y i said sth is wrong wif u? u want to know wads wrong? u r closing up.. whether closing up frm me.. or frm de rest of ur frens.. i dont know y.. bt i felt like i m losing u slowly too.. (mayb u ll sae i think too much. mayb i do think too much) u know y i always talked when i called ya, cause i really hope u will just open up and talk to me too.

(i duno wad will be in ur mind when u read this. but basically i dun wan u to be stressed out by this entry. mayb somehow i haf had some expectations over our frenship. if u do think so den tell me. ( i am sorry to give u another trouble, when u r alr facing with so many uncertainties and confusions))

take care my friend.