GrRrr

i have just experienced a v great extreme emotion. the emotion was so much that it scares me. anw de emotion is ANGER. i cant rmb when was the last time i felt so worked up. worked up due to anger. nt those worked up due to anxiety or impatience. This time round, it is really pure anger. I believe it has been such a long time dat i dare to say this may be the first time i really felt such a powerful anger. I can totally understand the meaning of blood boiling. Cause i could just rmb vividly the moment when my blood rise and it could be felt as if it is being boiled. and i mean literally boiled. another thing besides blood boiling, is dat anger can totally blind ur eyes! and once again this is proven. believe it anot. i felt exactly like dat. blinded. it was felt as if there is a fog in my head. literally. and it took great pains to keep my anger in check. I used to be able to control it well, by tryin to tink abt other things. but today, the method dint work at all.i tried takin deep breaths, n all i could feel is my blood rising higher.
i dislike to b treated unfairly. i mean how anyone will like daT? of coz besides de party dats is receiving de gd end it is no prob. i haf esp strong feeling against dis kinda treatment. nt too sure y. mayb since young it has alwaes been like dat? everythin gg against me? but.. as many went against me, der are many too dat went for me. and i must be thankful for dat.
its really not easy to control ur own emotion. but satisfaction definitely will be felt if certain emotions can be controlled quite well. one of my goals: control my anger well (though it ll be quite seldom to get me real angry, better be prepared than sorry)
empty shells are not any better. no matter wd the shells represent.
exterior pictured, interior null < exterior plain, interior full;
sapped energy. tired. zonked.
good night.

GrRrr

i have just experienced a v great extreme emotion. the emotion was so much that it scares me. anw de emotion is ANGER. i cant rmb when was the last time i felt so worked up. worked up due to anger. nt those worked up due to anxiety or impatience. This time round, it is really pure anger. I believe it has been such a long time dat i dare to say this may be the first time i really felt such a powerful anger. I can totally understand the meaning of blood boiling. Cause i could just rmb vividly the moment when my blood rise and it could be felt as if it is being boiled. and i mean literally boiled. another thing besides blood boiling, is dat anger can totally blind ur eyes! and once again this is proven. believe it anot. i felt exactly like dat. blinded. it was felt as if there is a fog in my head. literally. and it took great pains to keep my anger in check. I used to be able to control it well, by tryin to tink abt other things. but today, the method dint work at all.i tried takin deep breaths, n all i could feel is my blood rising higher.
i dislike to b treated unfairly. i mean how anyone will like daT? of coz besides de party dats is receiving de gd end it is no prob. i haf esp strong feeling against dis kinda treatment. nt too sure y. mayb since young it has alwaes been like dat? everythin gg against me? but.. as many went against me, der are many too dat went for me. and i must be thankful for dat.
its really not easy to control ur own emotion. but satisfaction definitely will be felt if certain emotions can be controlled quite well. one of my goals: control my anger well (though it ll be quite seldom to get me real angry, better be prepared than sorry)
empty shells are not any better. no matter wd the shells represent.
exterior pictured, interior null < exterior plain, interior full;
sapped energy. tired. zonked.
good night.