Tuesday, October 25, 2005
*entangled*
so.. i m in a mess now.. nth is in ctrl.. or at least i felt dat nth is in ctrl.. i m giving myself trouble by telling myself dat i m in trouble.. i m giving myself trouble by allowing the trouble to overcome me.. okkk.. wadeva crap dis is..
anw.. my mom called cause my dad wanna talk to me.. she asked abt my promos.. whether i did badly as i tot.. so being an honest child, i decided how i nearly gt retain.. n i tink the sentence did shock her n dampen her mood. i can totally feel it.. haii.. it makes me sad too. mayb u ll feel like i m nt putting in enuff effort.. which is true.. i m nt having enuff self-disciplined.. which is also true.. bt how i feel like tellin her wad i feel.. though it wont make much diff.. n she ll think dat i m self-inflicting trouble.. ok.. wadeva it is. i hope u guys gt wad i m tryin to sae by 'self-inflicting trouble'. so she passed de fone to my dad.. n at the backgrnd she said sth.. which makes my dad sae dat 'wahh.. gonna nt able to study in sg' <-- sth like dat la.. anw.. nt main pt.. main pt is.. i m disappointing everyone. n i m afraid dat more is to come. but of cos i m to prevent the "more is to come" frm happening.. sort out my life.. n how to come abt sortin it.. i nv know livin a life is so hard.. or mayb its because der are too much thought put in dats y its hard? who knows..
do u guys ever in the situation where u feel two extreme feelings? to continue wif all ur efforts or to just give up.? haa.. de whole sentence sounds funny.. nvm.. hai.. the burden can totally be felt, its like u know dat by just putting it down (which will means giving up) the weight of the burden will not be felt animore.. but u know wad.. u ll nv know whether the next weight that u choose to carry will be heavier.. if it is heavier r u gg to put it down again n try another weight of burden? if u cont carryin it up n putting it down.. wont it means dat nth will b done? wont it means dat u r runnin awae frm de problem when u r face to face wif one? its kinda chim.. but i hope some of ya will get wad i mean.. i feel like putting down my burden.. but at least i have one knowledge.. the rest of the burden weight that is available will definitely be heavier than my curent weight of burden.. so y do i wan to b so stupid n drop my current one to carry the heavier one? mayb i shall just take sometime n rest a while before continuing again? just mayb..
do u guys ever miss someone so much? but u dint know that u r missing the person until u meet up with the person again? if u do, mayb.. just mayb, that this person plays or ever played a significant role in ur life :) okk.. dats my theory anw.. recently i realise one such person.. haa.. the feeling of being able to miss someone is quite amazing (sounds crap huh.. bt its true)wad makes de person missable? mayb its de sincerity the person radiates out :) haa..
.life is really full of ups and downs.
so.. i m in a mess now.. nth is in ctrl.. or at least i felt dat nth is in ctrl.. i m giving myself trouble by telling myself dat i m in trouble.. i m giving myself trouble by allowing the trouble to overcome me.. okkk.. wadeva crap dis is..
anw.. my mom called cause my dad wanna talk to me.. she asked abt my promos.. whether i did badly as i tot.. so being an honest child, i decided how i nearly gt retain.. n i tink the sentence did shock her n dampen her mood. i can totally feel it.. haii.. it makes me sad too. mayb u ll feel like i m nt putting in enuff effort.. which is true.. i m nt having enuff self-disciplined.. which is also true.. bt how i feel like tellin her wad i feel.. though it wont make much diff.. n she ll think dat i m self-inflicting trouble.. ok.. wadeva it is. i hope u guys gt wad i m tryin to sae by 'self-inflicting trouble'. so she passed de fone to my dad.. n at the backgrnd she said sth.. which makes my dad sae dat 'wahh.. gonna nt able to study in sg' <-- sth like dat la.. anw.. nt main pt.. main pt is.. i m disappointing everyone. n i m afraid dat more is to come. but of cos i m to prevent the "more is to come" frm happening.. sort out my life.. n how to come abt sortin it.. i nv know livin a life is so hard.. or mayb its because der are too much thought put in dats y its hard? who knows..
do u guys ever in the situation where u feel two extreme feelings? to continue wif all ur efforts or to just give up.? haa.. de whole sentence sounds funny.. nvm.. hai.. the burden can totally be felt, its like u know dat by just putting it down (which will means giving up) the weight of the burden will not be felt animore.. but u know wad.. u ll nv know whether the next weight that u choose to carry will be heavier.. if it is heavier r u gg to put it down again n try another weight of burden? if u cont carryin it up n putting it down.. wont it means dat nth will b done? wont it means dat u r runnin awae frm de problem when u r face to face wif one? its kinda chim.. but i hope some of ya will get wad i mean.. i feel like putting down my burden.. but at least i have one knowledge.. the rest of the burden weight that is available will definitely be heavier than my curent weight of burden.. so y do i wan to b so stupid n drop my current one to carry the heavier one? mayb i shall just take sometime n rest a while before continuing again? just mayb..
do u guys ever miss someone so much? but u dint know that u r missing the person until u meet up with the person again? if u do, mayb.. just mayb, that this person plays or ever played a significant role in ur life :) okk.. dats my theory anw.. recently i realise one such person.. haa.. the feeling of being able to miss someone is quite amazing (sounds crap huh.. bt its true)wad makes de person missable? mayb its de sincerity the person radiates out :) haa..
.life is really full of ups and downs.
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well.. do cherish the person u miss that dearly.. cuz u nvr noe wat can happen... cherish the time u can have wif him... it may be the only time u can noe urself better.. the only time ur feelings r realli sorted out and nothing matters more than between u and him...
and as for the one u said bout the weight of ur burden, u cant judge things like this.. wat whether the next burden is heavier or light.. rather.. it's whether there will be a next burden u can take up... soemtimes... if u drop the burden u have on u now... u'll nvr get to see another burden coming... by then.. it's worse than having this current load u have on u...
i noe wat ye trying to mean... i noe ur prob.. but trust me... juz hold on wif it... i had a story but too long for me to write here le.. perhaps next time :) juz hold on to it... dun forget though, u're nvr alone... u can always approach somone for help... there's tutors, frens, even ur parents... dun give urself too much pressure, too many troubles, it'll only dampen ur spirit, discourages urself only... instead, believe in urself and prove to others that u can do it, u can make it, even if it's goin to be so difficult, at least eventually u can be assured that u did ur best to achieve wat u realli wanted to achieve. even if u failed to.. u did ur best... then u wont have any regrets...
as i said b4... quite a few times le... believe in urself, but oso accept help from others... I'll still be there to help u if ye need any ye noe... dun try to solve problems urself when u noe u cant.. it'll add more misery on urself...
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OsirisZ, at
10:09 PM
and as for the one u said bout the weight of ur burden, u cant judge things like this.. wat whether the next burden is heavier or light.. rather.. it's whether there will be a next burden u can take up... soemtimes... if u drop the burden u have on u now... u'll nvr get to see another burden coming... by then.. it's worse than having this current load u have on u...
i noe wat ye trying to mean... i noe ur prob.. but trust me... juz hold on wif it... i had a story but too long for me to write here le.. perhaps next time :) juz hold on to it... dun forget though, u're nvr alone... u can always approach somone for help... there's tutors, frens, even ur parents... dun give urself too much pressure, too many troubles, it'll only dampen ur spirit, discourages urself only... instead, believe in urself and prove to others that u can do it, u can make it, even if it's goin to be so difficult, at least eventually u can be assured that u did ur best to achieve wat u realli wanted to achieve. even if u failed to.. u did ur best... then u wont have any regrets...
as i said b4... quite a few times le... believe in urself, but oso accept help from others... I'll still be there to help u if ye need any ye noe... dun try to solve problems urself when u noe u cant.. it'll add more misery on urself...
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OsirisZ, at
10:09 PM
thnx Osi :)
haa.. can u share ur story if u dun mind?
when we dun tink abt it.. life is much easier to live on rite..
By neL, at
11:51 PM
haa.. can u share ur story if u dun mind?
when we dun tink abt it.. life is much easier to live on rite..
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neL, at
11:51 PM
hmm.. n ur pt of we may nt have anymore burden to carry.. it starts me tinking..
By neL, at
11:53 PM
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neL, at
11:53 PM
hmm... it's not MY story la.. it's i heard from someone de... cant remember who...I try to shorten it la, it's bout these 2 person in a desert, they made Jesus, and Jesus told them to carry this bag of pebbles each across the desert.
so they each carry a sack of peddbles. u noe how hard it is la... so heavy... so one of them actually cheated by throwing most of the pebbles away.. thinking that only a few left should be enough.
When they reach the other side of the desert, they open the sack to find not pebbles but pieces of golds the size of pebbles in it la... well, of cuz the one who threw most of it away only had in the end 1 or 2 golds in the sack lor..
ye should noe the moral of the story... quite dumb story but I thought it's quite meaningful to a certain extent...
By OsirisZ, at
2:07 PM
so they each carry a sack of peddbles. u noe how hard it is la... so heavy... so one of them actually cheated by throwing most of the pebbles away.. thinking that only a few left should be enough.
When they reach the other side of the desert, they open the sack to find not pebbles but pieces of golds the size of pebbles in it la... well, of cuz the one who threw most of it away only had in the end 1 or 2 golds in the sack lor..
ye should noe the moral of the story... quite dumb story but I thought it's quite meaningful to a certain extent...
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OsirisZ, at
2:07 PM
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and as for the one u said bout the weight of ur burden, u cant judge things like this.. wat whether the next burden is heavier or light.. rather.. it's whether there will be a next burden u can take up... soemtimes... if u drop the burden u have on u now... u'll nvr get to see another burden coming... by then.. it's worse than having this current load u have on u...
i noe wat ye trying to mean... i noe ur prob.. but trust me... juz hold on wif it... i had a story but too long for me to write here le.. perhaps next time :) juz hold on to it... dun forget though, u're nvr alone... u can always approach somone for help... there's tutors, frens, even ur parents... dun give urself too much pressure, too many troubles, it'll only dampen ur spirit, discourages urself only... instead, believe in urself and prove to others that u can do it, u can make it, even if it's goin to be so difficult, at least eventually u can be assured that u did ur best to achieve wat u realli wanted to achieve. even if u failed to.. u did ur best... then u wont have any regrets...
as i said b4... quite a few times le... believe in urself, but oso accept help from others... I'll still be there to help u if ye need any ye noe... dun try to solve problems urself when u noe u cant.. it'll add more misery on urself...
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haa.. can u share ur story if u dun mind?
when we dun tink abt it.. life is much easier to live on rite..
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so they each carry a sack of peddbles. u noe how hard it is la... so heavy... so one of them actually cheated by throwing most of the pebbles away.. thinking that only a few left should be enough.
When they reach the other side of the desert, they open the sack to find not pebbles but pieces of golds the size of pebbles in it la... well, of cuz the one who threw most of it away only had in the end 1 or 2 golds in the sack lor..
ye should noe the moral of the story... quite dumb story but I thought it's quite meaningful to a certain extent...
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