*feeling great!*

haha.. upon MeiQi's request.. i m here to blog :) missing me ya? haha.. dis is bad.. havent even gone off yet.. n u r missing me!! wahaha.. okk.. crap..
anyway.. feeling great now.. just now go n memorise de 三字经 with xiao mei.. heh.. its fun.. realli.. all the meanings and the memorising parts.. as some ppl know.. i haf problem pronouncin de correct chns words.. haa.. n dis makes xiao mei luff.. de interaction itself left me feeling great :) (btw.. onli memorise a few lines.. mayb gonna read all.. gona get the bk.. heh. )
btw for everybodi hu cares :) i am going back Indo this coming fri.. heh.. dun miss me ya.. n i will be back only on the christmas eve.. longest holiday for me.. i m quite nervous actually.. heh.. for unknown reason.. has not been going back for like.. 2 years?
hmm.. haha.. it feels funny if i onli blog about normal things.. now i m gonna write some of my inner thought.. haa.. haf u ever wondered.. when someone is telling something serious.. haf u ever think that they are actually telling about their life experiences.. haf u ever feel that because they care that's y they are telling u about their life experiences.. hmm.. mayb my questions sound funny.. but to me.. i do see people hu dont see the point of listening to these people.. to me.. i feel that they are telling because they want u to know.. they want u to learn from their experiences.. though we know that it will be hard to truly learn from someone else's experiences unless we experience the same thing.. if nt we will nv fully understand what de person feel.. hmm.. sounds complicated?(haa.. sori for de weird expression n structure too) to me.. when i was young.. there were times when i felt that i am the best.. when i felt that they dint understand me.. when i felt that "what u know.. u know nothing.. u dun understand wad i m doin.. u never try to understand wad i m doing" but as i grow older.. i suddenly see so many things.. at least alot more than when i was younger.. these adults.. not that they dun understand us.. as they went through wad i was going through before.. they cared.. they did not want us to walk the same path as they walked.. as they know that its not road to recovery.. it will lead to the final point of disappointment.. howeva.. they yet couldnt tell us y they dun allow us to do it dis wae.. i believe it ll be de same when it comes to us and our children :) anw.. just a piece of my thought..
another piece of my thought.. haf u wondered.. and got angry with those tv dramas n storybks.. where the actress or actor.. nv did xplain n clear things up when things get too complicated n dey being misunderstood.. at least i did.. i used to not be able to understand wads gg on in deir mind.. y dey wont xplain.. n clear deir own names.. even when dey haf de chance n given de chance to do so.. dis mayb because.. to them.. then n der.. silence will be the best explanation.. silence no longer means consent.. bt deep in de heart.. dey know xplanation ll help nth.. worse.. it may complicate matters.. when i gt older.. i had gone through times when i tink silence will be the best.. i felt that there is no need for explanation.. even though i was given the chance to xplain.. i choose to keep quiet.. just sit down der and listen.. to the scolding.. to the complaining.. to the misunderstanding.. because.. i felt so tired.. so tired that i want everything to end.. haa.. it may sounds weird.. even when i type this.. i felt that y.. y.. how .. how.. will someone be so tired that they will rather be misunderstood.. thats y when someone says that he will never allow this to happen that to happen.. he will never like this and that.. i will question him.. " are u sure?" cause i believe.. u ll nv know wad will happen.. rite?

*feeling great!*

haha.. upon MeiQi's request.. i m here to blog :) missing me ya? haha.. dis is bad.. havent even gone off yet.. n u r missing me!! wahaha.. okk.. crap..
anyway.. feeling great now.. just now go n memorise de 三字经 with xiao mei.. heh.. its fun.. realli.. all the meanings and the memorising parts.. as some ppl know.. i haf problem pronouncin de correct chns words.. haa.. n dis makes xiao mei luff.. de interaction itself left me feeling great :) (btw.. onli memorise a few lines.. mayb gonna read all.. gona get the bk.. heh. )
btw for everybodi hu cares :) i am going back Indo this coming fri.. heh.. dun miss me ya.. n i will be back only on the christmas eve.. longest holiday for me.. i m quite nervous actually.. heh.. for unknown reason.. has not been going back for like.. 2 years?
hmm.. haha.. it feels funny if i onli blog about normal things.. now i m gonna write some of my inner thought.. haa.. haf u ever wondered.. when someone is telling something serious.. haf u ever think that they are actually telling about their life experiences.. haf u ever feel that because they care that's y they are telling u about their life experiences.. hmm.. mayb my questions sound funny.. but to me.. i do see people hu dont see the point of listening to these people.. to me.. i feel that they are telling because they want u to know.. they want u to learn from their experiences.. though we know that it will be hard to truly learn from someone else's experiences unless we experience the same thing.. if nt we will nv fully understand what de person feel.. hmm.. sounds complicated?(haa.. sori for de weird expression n structure too) to me.. when i was young.. there were times when i felt that i am the best.. when i felt that they dint understand me.. when i felt that "what u know.. u know nothing.. u dun understand wad i m doin.. u never try to understand wad i m doing" but as i grow older.. i suddenly see so many things.. at least alot more than when i was younger.. these adults.. not that they dun understand us.. as they went through wad i was going through before.. they cared.. they did not want us to walk the same path as they walked.. as they know that its not road to recovery.. it will lead to the final point of disappointment.. howeva.. they yet couldnt tell us y they dun allow us to do it dis wae.. i believe it ll be de same when it comes to us and our children :) anw.. just a piece of my thought..
another piece of my thought.. haf u wondered.. and got angry with those tv dramas n storybks.. where the actress or actor.. nv did xplain n clear things up when things get too complicated n dey being misunderstood.. at least i did.. i used to not be able to understand wads gg on in deir mind.. y dey wont xplain.. n clear deir own names.. even when dey haf de chance n given de chance to do so.. dis mayb because.. to them.. then n der.. silence will be the best explanation.. silence no longer means consent.. bt deep in de heart.. dey know xplanation ll help nth.. worse.. it may complicate matters.. when i gt older.. i had gone through times when i tink silence will be the best.. i felt that there is no need for explanation.. even though i was given the chance to xplain.. i choose to keep quiet.. just sit down der and listen.. to the scolding.. to the complaining.. to the misunderstanding.. because.. i felt so tired.. so tired that i want everything to end.. haa.. it may sounds weird.. even when i type this.. i felt that y.. y.. how .. how.. will someone be so tired that they will rather be misunderstood.. thats y when someone says that he will never allow this to happen that to happen.. he will never like this and that.. i will question him.. " are u sure?" cause i believe.. u ll nv know wad will happen.. rite?