*confused*

i tried not to think about anything.
i tried to think happy thoughts.
i tried to be cheerful.
i tried to study.
i tried to sleep.
i tried not to notice whats happening.
i tried to attract attention.
i tried to be selfless.
but whateva i tried to do, nothing seemed to work.

i know right now u need time for urself.. u need to think about many things.. i know i promised not to disturb u.. so that u can think ur things through. but u know, what i m really hoping is u sharing whats in u with me. i mean dats wad frens are for right? u alwaes say nth is wrong wif u when dey r so many things disturbing u.. u know y i said sth is wrong wif u? u want to know wads wrong? u r closing up.. whether closing up frm me.. or frm de rest of ur frens.. i dont know y.. bt i felt like i m losing u slowly too.. (mayb u ll sae i think too much. mayb i do think too much) u know y i always talked when i called ya, cause i really hope u will just open up and talk to me too.

(i duno wad will be in ur mind when u read this. but basically i dun wan u to be stressed out by this entry. mayb somehow i haf had some expectations over our frenship. if u do think so den tell me. ( i am sorry to give u another trouble, when u r alr facing with so many uncertainties and confusions))

take care my friend.

*confused*

i tried not to think about anything.
i tried to think happy thoughts.
i tried to be cheerful.
i tried to study.
i tried to sleep.
i tried not to notice whats happening.
i tried to attract attention.
i tried to be selfless.
but whateva i tried to do, nothing seemed to work.

i know right now u need time for urself.. u need to think about many things.. i know i promised not to disturb u.. so that u can think ur things through. but u know, what i m really hoping is u sharing whats in u with me. i mean dats wad frens are for right? u alwaes say nth is wrong wif u when dey r so many things disturbing u.. u know y i said sth is wrong wif u? u want to know wads wrong? u r closing up.. whether closing up frm me.. or frm de rest of ur frens.. i dont know y.. bt i felt like i m losing u slowly too.. (mayb u ll sae i think too much. mayb i do think too much) u know y i always talked when i called ya, cause i really hope u will just open up and talk to me too.

(i duno wad will be in ur mind when u read this. but basically i dun wan u to be stressed out by this entry. mayb somehow i haf had some expectations over our frenship. if u do think so den tell me. ( i am sorry to give u another trouble, when u r alr facing with so many uncertainties and confusions))

take care my friend.