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It's been 2 mths since i last blg.. hmm.. maybe its time for me to close this site.. i mean.. its so sad to see a stagnant blog.. isn't it? bt again.. lets see whether i ll blog more this yr..

've been feeling quite nt myself last yr. n the trip back to hmtown did help to 'recharge' :) so i came back wif a much better mindset n new decisions..bt right now, i m starting to haf probs again.. so fast.. its yet one month since i came back here.

i want to be me. it seems like i m alr me. bt sometimes i feel as if i m nt being me. its hard to xplain. bt sometimes i really tink i m nt being me. n when i want to stop dat frm happening, it alr happens. It may haf bcome a habit that's y its so hard to stop.. possible?

sometimes i feel so out of ctrl, n dats when i begin to fear. something happened recently. and it set me thinking whether i m walkin the right path. whether i m making the right decision. bt somehow all of them felt so different compared to the past. i cant feel much happiness anymore. some says happiness is what u perceive. if it really does, then am i starting to have some unrealistic expectations again?

The feeling is completely different from the ones that i felt in the past. but still it is the same type of feeling. The negative feeling. i wanna get rid of it. no one wants negative feelings. they pull ppl down. they eat away happiness and they make ur day become night and the night gets darker.

Sometimes they say, "why are u thinking so much? just do it." bt all these feelings, they come by themselves. n i am supposed to find a solution so that they wont come affecting my life.

off to sch.

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It's been 2 mths since i last blg.. hmm.. maybe its time for me to close this site.. i mean.. its so sad to see a stagnant blog.. isn't it? bt again.. lets see whether i ll blog more this yr..

've been feeling quite nt myself last yr. n the trip back to hmtown did help to 'recharge' :) so i came back wif a much better mindset n new decisions..bt right now, i m starting to haf probs again.. so fast.. its yet one month since i came back here.

i want to be me. it seems like i m alr me. bt sometimes i feel as if i m nt being me. its hard to xplain. bt sometimes i really tink i m nt being me. n when i want to stop dat frm happening, it alr happens. It may haf bcome a habit that's y its so hard to stop.. possible?

sometimes i feel so out of ctrl, n dats when i begin to fear. something happened recently. and it set me thinking whether i m walkin the right path. whether i m making the right decision. bt somehow all of them felt so different compared to the past. i cant feel much happiness anymore. some says happiness is what u perceive. if it really does, then am i starting to have some unrealistic expectations again?

The feeling is completely different from the ones that i felt in the past. but still it is the same type of feeling. The negative feeling. i wanna get rid of it. no one wants negative feelings. they pull ppl down. they eat away happiness and they make ur day become night and the night gets darker.

Sometimes they say, "why are u thinking so much? just do it." bt all these feelings, they come by themselves. n i am supposed to find a solution so that they wont come affecting my life.

off to sch.