-Monday, October 22, 2007-

mood : *don't care*

since the time u told me the truth, i realised that all along u r just so not real. if its so hard to forgive, then i don't mind we not talking. However, u make the whole thing seem as if i am the betrayer and u r the innocent. When u left, u inform me none. and now, after nearly a month, u msged me wanting to meet. So what kind of reaction am i supposed to give? i have the choice to just ignore ur msg, but i decided to reply. i just dont understand why do u still want to contact me when u left without telling me. isn't that in a way declaring that our friendship is no more. Are u contacting because u want to get something out of me again? or are u just trying to be friends again? i can no longer understand ur intention, and the reason why i m reluctant to meet u, cause i don't want to be involved in whatever things that u are going to create again. it's tiring and i don't have the time to feel tired for this kind of thing.
anyway, i don't even know why do i still blog this out when i don't care. it's just how sad why things must end this way. i mean, it may not have ended. but maybe i want to end it? or maybe it ended, just that i am hoping too much? whatever it is, not so soon i guess. i need to sort my mind out. i need to know what i want. i need to have the time before i can meet u. maybe i will reply u soon. maybe now. maybe not.
maybe i think too complicated about u. maybe u r that complicated.

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Monday, October 22, 2007

mood : *don't care*

since the time u told me the truth, i realised that all along u r just so not real. if its so hard to forgive, then i don't mind we not talking. However, u make the whole thing seem as if i am the betrayer and u r the innocent. When u left, u inform me none. and now, after nearly a month, u msged me wanting to meet. So what kind of reaction am i supposed to give? i have the choice to just ignore ur msg, but i decided to reply. i just dont understand why do u still want to contact me when u left without telling me. isn't that in a way declaring that our friendship is no more. Are u contacting because u want to get something out of me again? or are u just trying to be friends again? i can no longer understand ur intention, and the reason why i m reluctant to meet u, cause i don't want to be involved in whatever things that u are going to create again. it's tiring and i don't have the time to feel tired for this kind of thing.
anyway, i don't even know why do i still blog this out when i don't care. it's just how sad why things must end this way. i mean, it may not have ended. but maybe i want to end it? or maybe it ended, just that i am hoping too much? whatever it is, not so soon i guess. i need to sort my mind out. i need to know what i want. i need to have the time before i can meet u. maybe i will reply u soon. maybe now. maybe not.
maybe i think too complicated about u. maybe u r that complicated.

#  footprint is left @ 1:27 PM

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