-Wednesday, November 28, 2007-

mood: blue

i don't know what is bothering me (ok. actually i know).
i don't want to admit what is bothering me? (actually i don't mind admitting too)
Am i confusing you? (i think i do)
but it doesn't bother you right? (or maybe it does?)
but for what? (for whatever reason there is)
I know i am trying to self-feed myself something that doesn't even exist (ya.. good that i know)
so what's the purpose for that? (ya.. what for? self-entertainment?)

oh my..
how and when does all these start?
it starts with me and end with me. (i wish)
what is it anyway? or more likely, what are "all these" anyway?
it is not defined. and thus it is nothing but the "nothing"
when the crap starts = confused mind

i wish i can be normal (so it means i m nt?)
all i feel is the messed up feeling
no longer in control
hold no values
all the "depressing" thoughts and feelings
i wish it will be gone when i open my eyes in the morning.
but nowadays, it got carried into my dreams.
like the vampire -_-
argh.

gd night world.


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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

mood: blue

i don't know what is bothering me (ok. actually i know).
i don't want to admit what is bothering me? (actually i don't mind admitting too)
Am i confusing you? (i think i do)
but it doesn't bother you right? (or maybe it does?)
but for what? (for whatever reason there is)
I know i am trying to self-feed myself something that doesn't even exist (ya.. good that i know)
so what's the purpose for that? (ya.. what for? self-entertainment?)

oh my..
how and when does all these start?
it starts with me and end with me. (i wish)
what is it anyway? or more likely, what are "all these" anyway?
it is not defined. and thus it is nothing but the "nothing"
when the crap starts = confused mind

i wish i can be normal (so it means i m nt?)
all i feel is the messed up feeling
no longer in control
hold no values
all the "depressing" thoughts and feelings
i wish it will be gone when i open my eyes in the morning.
but nowadays, it got carried into my dreams.
like the vampire -_-
argh.

gd night world.


#  footprint is left @ 12:24 AM

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