-Tuesday, October 30, 2007-
mood : *moodless*
its 1 day +.. the feeling actually subdued within 15 minutes after knowing it. maybe its because i am forced to focus on other things.. maybe its because i have found an answer for whatever is bothering me. maybe its because i typed out whatever i was feeling for 15 minutes and 1 page long. its all maybe. but all these are just maybes. maybes all these are not even the maybes that i am supposed to maybe.. hahahaha.. too many maybes, i dont even know what i am typing anymore.
okay.. for another thing, a different thing from the one i mentioned above, i guess for that, it is subsiding too. the phase is over. it is just at the moment thing. but i swear it was never my imagination. it was never my illusions. But what does it matter if it does not exist anymore.
i was reading wk's blog again yest. and i dont know why, reading his blog always makes me want to blog. i guess its how he can easily convey his true feelings. and i dont know why, but i feel like i could understand what he is writing.
Back to my imaginations and illusions, even though i am 99% sure that all those are real, but again i doubt myself on how i m interpreting it. maybe unconsciously i am interpreting it the way i hope it turns out to be :) (just the thought of it actually can make me smile again). But ya, like i wrote, it will never happen, it is all just my blissful thought.
lets close this up. and FOCUS like never before! left 2 more critical weeks. if i can get over this, then everything else doesn't matter anymore :)
# footprint is left @ 6:51 PM
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
mood : *moodless*
its 1 day +.. the feeling actually subdued within 15 minutes after knowing it. maybe its because i am forced to focus on other things.. maybe its because i have found an answer for whatever is bothering me. maybe its because i typed out whatever i was feeling for 15 minutes and 1 page long. its all maybe. but all these are just maybes. maybes all these are not even the maybes that i am supposed to maybe.. hahahaha.. too many maybes, i dont even know what i am typing anymore.
okay.. for another thing, a different thing from the one i mentioned above, i guess for that, it is subsiding too. the phase is over. it is just at the moment thing. but i swear it was never my imagination. it was never my illusions. But what does it matter if it does not exist anymore.
i was reading wk's blog again yest. and i dont know why, reading his blog always makes me want to blog. i guess its how he can easily convey his true feelings. and i dont know why, but i feel like i could understand what he is writing.
Back to my imaginations and illusions, even though i am 99% sure that all those are real, but again i doubt myself on how i m interpreting it. maybe unconsciously i am interpreting it the way i hope it turns out to be :) (just the thought of it actually can make me smile again). But ya, like i wrote, it will never happen, it is all just my blissful thought.
lets close this up. and FOCUS like never before! left 2 more critical weeks. if i can get over this, then everything else doesn't matter anymore :)
# footprint is left @ 6:51 PM
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