-Sunday, November 11, 2007-

mood :*stressed*

I had that nightmare again. After almost a year.. The last time, it was unknown who, only knew that it was someone dearest to me, which didn't even exist in real life.. This time round it is someone whom recently i have thought a lot.. But the problem is he wasn't anyone dear to me.. I don't even dare to say that we are friends.. and all because of the way u treat me.. But anyway, back to the nightmare..
there was my mom, kristin, mr c and one of my teammate. We were out having some holidays at some place.. and we stayed in the hotel.. Funnily, all of us slept in different room.. one day, mr c, teammate and i went to play some of the activities available there, and we nearly got into the accident. After that day, i never see mr c and teammate anymore. But i dint realise that until a few days later, when kristin came and find me with a worried and scared face.. She asked me, when was the last time i saw them.. and i realised it had been quite a while. I started to remember the murder case which i had heard while staying in the hotel, and i started to become scared too.. Then i went to knock my mom's door. and when she peeped out from her room, for a moment kristin and i suspected that maybe she is the culprit.. then we went back to my room, and as kristin opened the wardrobe, i saw her expression. She seemed to see something in the wardrobe. So before she could show me, i shaked my head and went out.. When we were outside, on the pathway, i gather my courage, and asked her.. so mr c is gone? and she answered me: yes, he is lost, cant be found.. Upon hearing, my tears started to flow down uncontrollably.. and the anguished felt in the dream was so strong that i forced myself to wake up immediately. I woke up, and thought for a moment that "am i depressed"
sometimes i wonder, why do i start to make dreams that enable me to experience feelings that i have never, not even once, experienced it in my real life? Everytime i recalled the dream, it would feel like i am watching a show and i knew that tts the appropriate reactions and feelings that i should give and feel when something similar like this happen in real life. But the problem is, even before it happened in my real life, i could actually taste the feeling.. could actually feel the anguished, the fear of not seeing someone anymore.. forever.. never.. and all that is left, is the photos and the memories..

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

mood :*stressed*

I had that nightmare again. After almost a year.. The last time, it was unknown who, only knew that it was someone dearest to me, which didn't even exist in real life.. This time round it is someone whom recently i have thought a lot.. But the problem is he wasn't anyone dear to me.. I don't even dare to say that we are friends.. and all because of the way u treat me.. But anyway, back to the nightmare..
there was my mom, kristin, mr c and one of my teammate. We were out having some holidays at some place.. and we stayed in the hotel.. Funnily, all of us slept in different room.. one day, mr c, teammate and i went to play some of the activities available there, and we nearly got into the accident. After that day, i never see mr c and teammate anymore. But i dint realise that until a few days later, when kristin came and find me with a worried and scared face.. She asked me, when was the last time i saw them.. and i realised it had been quite a while. I started to remember the murder case which i had heard while staying in the hotel, and i started to become scared too.. Then i went to knock my mom's door. and when she peeped out from her room, for a moment kristin and i suspected that maybe she is the culprit.. then we went back to my room, and as kristin opened the wardrobe, i saw her expression. She seemed to see something in the wardrobe. So before she could show me, i shaked my head and went out.. When we were outside, on the pathway, i gather my courage, and asked her.. so mr c is gone? and she answered me: yes, he is lost, cant be found.. Upon hearing, my tears started to flow down uncontrollably.. and the anguished felt in the dream was so strong that i forced myself to wake up immediately. I woke up, and thought for a moment that "am i depressed"
sometimes i wonder, why do i start to make dreams that enable me to experience feelings that i have never, not even once, experienced it in my real life? Everytime i recalled the dream, it would feel like i am watching a show and i knew that tts the appropriate reactions and feelings that i should give and feel when something similar like this happen in real life. But the problem is, even before it happened in my real life, i could actually taste the feeling.. could actually feel the anguished, the fear of not seeing someone anymore.. forever.. never.. and all that is left, is the photos and the memories..

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